Thank you to everyone who has guest blogged this week. I appreciate your kind words and your stories and your support more than you will ever know.
What happens next?
The "fun"eral will be this weekend. Emphasis on "fun" because we are going to try to very very hard not to look at this as The End. It so obviously is The End that we can't help but feel foolish, but we, as a family, need a new beginning, an opportunity for all of us to re-examine our lives and solidify the bonds in our family. My step mother has been an absolute wreck for the last week and things are critically shitty fro her right now. My brother and I are doing better than she is, which is nine kinds of ironic, but I expect I'll have the bad manners to complain about that later. No worries, internet. You can count on me to continue to say all manner of things that I should not say.
Starting with this: I am glad it is over. I am glad for him because he was suffering so terribly. And I am glad for me because the his cancer has been the centerpiece of my life for far too long. I need to be myself again.
(I don't know who that is anymore. I'll, uh, let you know when I make progress in that area).
My dad was the greatest blessing of my life. I could say that fifty ways and it would still sound like a blah blah blah, so I won't try to explain that further.
I'll be posting here and there in the next week or so. Anyone who wants to guest post here who does not yet have authority: just let me know. Anyone who has already guest posted who feels like doing it again: go for it.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. You all have been wonderful.