Tuesday, August 5, 2008

The next day

For those of you who missed the post describing the disgrace that was my father's funeral, I am sorry. I had to take it down. It was just that ugly.

It is time for me to let you in on something else: I am considering closing this blog. Far too long, it has been about nothing but badness, and as I look into the future, I don't see anything but more badness. I am not sure that writing about it is the right thing to do. In fact, I am sure it is not.

If I make this decision (as I imagine I soon will) I will draft a final post and remove the blog. If I start blogging again under a new URL, I feel pretty sure you'll find me.

Thank you again to all of you. This outlet has been the bright spot in the worst year of my life, and all the support you all have shown me has given me hope. I have really needed it, and I could have gotten this kind, the blog kind, your kind, from nowhere else.

Thank you.

18 comments:

ingrid said...

whatever you choose... thank you for opening your heart.

wishing you lots of healing and everything you need nina.

thank you.

P said...

There was so much goodness in this blog, Nina. I hope you'll continue blogging in one way or another. We're here because we want to be - we love you and love being in your company.

Avitable said...

Rather than me finding you, I hope I get an email from you with the URL. :)

As long as you come back with another blog, I'm all for it.

Miss Britt said...

I understand needing a fresh start. But I will miss your sweetness.

Finn said...

Yes, it would be nice to hear from you if you decide to come back...

I hope you find what you're looking for darlin'. I'm gonna miss you.

maryse said...

it couldn't have been all badness because i wouldn't be coming back.

i wish you all the best.

Annie said...

You have to do what is best for you, but I will miss you, badness or no.

catherine said...

I think (a break and?) a fresh new diary may be just the thing. Crack it open soon, please, inhale that new-book smell, and write on, sister. When you're feelin' it.

The reasons you see nothing but more badness is because:

A) of the merciless laws of subjectivity
B) the era you're currently looking from is dark and painful, casting a bleak hue
C) You're not in the right frame of mind to get all content and hopeful and roses and sunshine, etc. etc.

AND NOT BECAUSE THAT'S ALL THERE IS. Believe it... or not.

I think you misguess how people feel when they visit your blog. You wrote 'take happiness level down a notch' etc., something like that. That isn't how it goes, Nina, and I hope you allow the comments and emails you receive to buoy your opinion. You are not a bring-downer or a bummer; the writing from you, the stories from you, do not cast that bleak hue outward. That is not what others look toward you and see or feel. The writing and stories from you are of the essential you, which transcends your circumstances and all other details. Therein lies some of the countless great goods in being "...a true friend who is a good writer", to use part of my long-time favorite quote by E.B. White.

Continued Love, hugs and drinks.

Sizzle said...

You have to do what is right for you but that won't stop me from being sad to see you go.

Big hug and loves to you on your journey.

Dagny said...

I understand.

Very well.

I'm so sorry.

I'll be thinking about you, I always am.

xoxoxo

ellie said...

I'll miss you but you need to take care of you. Hugs...

jen said...

I will miss you very much, Nina. I understand and respect any decision you make. I'm sorry that when you look into the future you see darkness.

As much as one anonymous person can love another, I do love ya.

Kate P said...

Sorry about all the ugliness. I know these aren't decisions you're making lightly. My rush-hour rosary was for you and your needs this afternoon.

LizB said...

Take a break, but please know that your posts never bring me down. Don't lose my e-mail address -- I'd love to be notified if you do open another blog. Sending you waves of peace and healing.

country roads said...

If you start up again with a new attitude (with guest bloggers the Pointer Sisters--didn't they do that song? Or was it Patti LaBelle? either way)...please let me know :-)

Mrs. Who said...

I've only recently started reading you, and would miss your blog. But you have to do what is best for you. It does sound like this blog served a purpose in helping you transverse a difficult time. You have had some figurative mountains to climb.

But lordy, you crack me up sometimes! Being a small-town Southern girl, I've thoroughly enjoyed reading about your life in the big city.

Em said...

I will miss this blog if you decide to shut it down. You are an interesting person, Nina. I enjoy reading about your life and your thoughts a whole lot. But like everyone says, you have to do what you have to do.

Maggie said...

What Avi and LizB said. I love this blog, I love your writing, you are hysterical and poignant and true even when you can't appreciate it yourself.

If you need to take a break, or make a fresh start, buy all means. Why, look what Josh Schwartz did with the masterful Gossip Girl when he was over and done with the OC -- and it's better than ever! But please know that if you do shut down, you can feel free to gust blog at my house whenever you want.

Hang in there babe.